Old Dog

disconsolate

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I haven’t talked about my senior dog, Rupert, for a while. He’s living with my dad out in the country, but I get to see him about once a month. He’s completely happy living with my dad, and far more comfortable there than at my house.

Rupe likes to follow his favorite people like a shadow, which has gotten somewhat problematic in his creaky old age. Our last visit to the Veterinary Medical Teaching Hospital at the University of California at Davis pinpointed the source of Rupert’s declining mobility as his knees, whose ligaments were frankly described as “blown out.” At 14 years old, with cardiac arrhythmia, high blood pressure, and failing kidneys, he’s not a candidate for surgery. As my dad says, “Once he gets up, he gets around. Just like me!”

When I first sent Rupe to stay with my dad, I saw it as a temporary deal. My mom had just passed away, and I knew my dad would benefit from Rupert’s constant offer of love and attention. But Rupe has benefitted from the arrangement as well.

At my house, my office is down a flight of stairs, and I’m up and down the stairs all day. This left poor Rupie either standing and staring, disconsolate, at my office door (he’s also pretty deaf, and his vision is not all that great, either), staggering up the stairs, or coming down them in a more or less controlled fall.

My dad’s house doesn’t have even a single step. Plus, my dad is retired, which gives him lots of time to pet a deserving dog. Plus, when Rupe goes outside, there are sticks absolutely everywhere – not a surprise, as my dad lives in the woods, but it makes Rupie’s heart sing to find crunchable toys everywhere he turns.

Rupert is happy to see me when I show up at my dad’s house for a visit, and he whimpers excitedly as he greets me, tail wagging and eyes shining. But I notice that he doesn’t follow me every time I go outside; he only makes the effort to get up and go out when Dad goes out. And at bedtime, he sleeps at the foot of my dad’s bed, not on my sleeping bag with me on the floor of the living room, like he used to when we would visit.

On the other hand, Dad says that Rupe would absolutely not allow him to undertake all the grooming that I perform on the furry old dog every time I’m there. I give Rupe a bath, pick the foxtails out from between his toes, clean his ears, cut his nails, and check the current size and location of all his fatty tumors. He looks like a star when I’m done, and smells and feels so good I can’t help but kiss his shining head again and again.

I don’t know if Rupert will make it through one more winter; we’ll see. For now, he’s in the best possible place, and even though I miss him, I’m happy he’s happy.


-Nancy Kerns